After the Fire

I am still just trying to take one day at a time and today isn't such a good day. Don't get me wrong, friends, family, coworkers, and students are being great. It is just the little things like not being able to find clothes to wear to work or wear period is frustrating. That in combination of why me thoughts... and living in the same place since 2001 and accumulating things just makes me a little sad. As I laid down in my sister's bed at my parents home last night I realized that I truly have no place to call my own and well it is honestly a little depressing. I will always have a place at their home, but I have for several years now had a place that was mine and going to be mine. I will miss the convenience of walking to stores and campus from home or running home durning lunch because I just need a quick nap.

Last night I had nightmares one after the other so bad one time I just got up and went for a drive.

I feel that many will be empathetic of my feelings now but shortly tell me to just get over it and move on.

Tomorrow is another day and I hope that it will be better...

Last night two of my bestest friends came over and helped me go threw some things and clean them out... which was a TREMENDOUS help! Today I went through some things for a while alone then my WONDERFUL mama came out to help me go through some things.

I am still doing fine. The only things that is kind of bothering me as I am going threw things is that I purchase a lot of gifts for economical prices so I can just go to my gift stash and pull out a gift for someone... and well I do this b/c I know my budget AND I think it is a smart thing to do... but since a lot of things have water "damage" it wouldn't really make a great gift. So it is a little frustatring parting with those things.... and to see the majority my books with water damage and worping... is a little downing but other than that things are going well.

It is a blessing that I have so much to go threw... still smiling and thanking God for the great things in life!

Liza Corrine

As I talk with family and friends I am comforted from thousands of miles away. Each and every conversation reminds me whether intentional or not of just how hard it is going to be when I get back. I suppose they are preparing me for the worse case scenerio. I am just going to leave it in God's hands... "Surrender All" so to speak. Yesterday was a bad day for me emotionally, however today is not so bad. Ta Ta For Now
Liza Corrine

First and foremost I am glad that no one was injured in the fire. I thank God greatly for that. This blog is in no way demonstrating my ungratefulness, yet a place for me to express myself. I usually share my blogs with my friends and family by advertising it via email, however I have no intention of sharing this one. If people run up on it by accident that is fine with me...

Today I woke up in Montana and the pain began to hit me. I woke up in a bed very similar to the one that I purchased with my own money that is no longer there. When I return to South Carolina it is kind of like I have to start over... not from scratch but I won't have my own space. I won't have a lot of the scrapbooks and memories that I cherished. Yes they are earthly things but as many who know me know those are things that are just part of me... they are my security of those I have lost and those I never knew but researched to find more about. Many things I had have their own story. According to my mama, boyfriend and neighbor lots of things were recovered from my townhome. I must just wait and see.

This in combination with loosing an aunt that I was close to in January makes me recall a poem my friend Demetrius wrote

WHEN THE COMFORTER CRIES

I've witnessed the tears of many
I've lent shoulders to plenty
Somehow it came to be
That when others needed strength
They would turn to me
I offer support to as many as I can
Letting them know I'm limited
Because I am only a man
And that Jesus has all power in his hands
All this they understand
Yet, they also wanted a human friend
So I encouraged those who faced fear
Prayed with those who felt the end was near
Stood for those who couldn't stand
Help those who needed a hand
Hugged those who needed to be hugged
Trying my best to show friendship and love
I did much more, that I won't name above
Because nothing was done to make a name
I just wanted them to know that though
Times were bad, they wouldn't stay the same
And I still know this to be true
Even though gray clouds cover my sky
Blocking the view of that pretty blue
I know there's a blessing on the other side
It's just the fact that once again I have to go through
It took years to release the tears
But I didn't even get to finish the cry
Minutes after I began I had to wipe my eyes dry
Because once again I was being called upon
To share another's pain
To remind them storms are blessings
Because nothing grows without rain
And I did it gladly
Because helping others
Actually helps me
But once again I can feel the swells
Of huge tears forming in my eyes
Tears refusing to be held back
And tears that once started
Will not prematurely be dried
So what do I do
When the comforter cries...
© Demeterius Smith (By inspiration of The Holy Spirit)

Please keep me in your prayers if you happen to fall upon this page because I know it is going to be hard

Taken from my original blog... www.lizacorrine.blogspot.com

Good Morning all. As my friends and family check back regularly many of you may or may not know. While composing yesterday's blog I got word that my townhome was on fire in South Carolina. No one was injured, which is most important. Had I been home, it was my afternoon "nap time", therefore thank God I was not there. To each of you that have called, emailed, imed, texted... Thank you so much for everything, words cannot express my sincere gratitude. Thank you for your offers of copies of pictures, furniture, clothes, places to stay, and so much more. Not that I doubted it but I truly know that I am loved! I would like to extend a very special thank you to my boyfriend, Kris and my parents who are handling thing until I return. They are a TRUE BLESSING. They requested that I continue to stay in MT and I agree there is nothing I can do there that they cannot handle until I return.

Many of you have expressed concern about me. Just please keep me and my family (biological, extended, and more) in your prayers. I am doing fine, and that I promise. Thanks to my extraodinary family and spectacular friends.

If you are in the area, Upstate South Carolina, and would like to help please contact me and I will either pass along Kris' information to you or let you know something when I do.

For friends and family that are away the following are news articles regarding the fire.

- Greenville News - There are pictures here

- WHNS Local CBS

- WYFF Local NBC - There is a video here with "interviews" of my next door neighbor Brian and the neighbor on the other side of them.

Thank you again.
Love ya,
Liza Corrine