After the Fire

Though no one has said it or may even think it. I finally feel like I am in the way. The places I seem safest and most secure I feel I have become a burden to them. It is hard for me because I was stuggling on my own before the fire... now I just don't even have a place to call my own. A place where those I know love me dearly could come visit me or leave when they wish. I think that I have worn out my welcome so to speak when random things seem to tick people off about me. I have tried so hard to have faith.. but today is a bad day. It really started good and I thought would end great... it almost did... it is just how my life is meant to be I suppose. A job I like that pays crappy, degrees I have earned that feel useless, and now I am in people's way because of a fire I had nothing to do with... it just doesn't seem fair for someone who has given her all. What am I saying life isn't fair. It felt like my life was going in a positive direction... i try daily to encourage others, but today isn't a good day... well i must rest I am supposed to get up in less and three hours to drive a hour to yard sale with a friend.

A place to live... I have been blessed to be able to stay with my boyfriend and my parents. They have been great to me and I thank them for that. Next week I start house sitting for a couple for a little over a month. It will be nice to be back in Clemson and not driving 30 minutes. However I will miss daily "arguing" with my mama and hanging out at my boyfriend and his parents.